But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love.
Father God loves us more than we can understand. He does not push us down to see if we will get back up. He does not confront us with anything but love. He is with us in our trials but does not put us in them. Life here on earth and our own human desires and relationships put us in those situations. Not God. As we reach out to Him, He is right there. He wants us to surrender all our stuff to Him.
We must stop staying in the past bothered by what we have done or what others have done to us. Because of His mercy, we are born again. That is to say reborn. We had no past when we were first born of our human mother and father. When we were reborn into Christ we also had no past. It was removed at the cross. There is nothing to be forgiven from. There is nothing to be ashamed of. We were born again. We need to stop dredging up things from our former life. Give it to God.
Walk in truth. Walk in the shadow of the Almighty. Walk in His love. Walk in His grace.